Medical update 1 : I have back problems from my early 20's, I have half extra spine bone than you guys (surgery to remove is not recommended) and my spine is slightly tilted to the right. That , long time ago, sometimes would render me helpless in bed, I'd wake up in excruciating pain and the bones from waist down would somehow jammed and I need to just lie there for at least two hours to unjammed it. I remember when hubs had to leave me and go to work and would call to ask, "hidup lagi??" ha ha ..thank god I had a really good friend to come and help me with the girls when I had my jammed days .. they were young and cant fend for themselves! (Azam not around yet)
I remember in our early years of marriage my husband was sailing, one time he came back and I was having one of my backaches problems, went to the office to get letter for specialist visit, and everyone was making fun of me .. "husband takde 4 bulan, balik cuti sampai sakit pinggang LOL " (boss remember this?) .. if only they knew the truth and nothing but the truth .. if THAT was the reason I wont complain lerr ...
Medical update 2 : i had a bad fall which had me doing a full flip and landed squarely on my back hitting the waist first .. so go figure!
Somehow, when we came back from our overseas stint and I could go for aerobics classes from time to time, the pain went away. Not completely but much lesser. And I havent had any painful backache attack for the last 13 years or so, I'd have niggling pain from time to time but a pain so mild that I sometimes dont realise it. There will be some bad days but it was bearable for me to go on like normal.
Trust me, even my doctor had to admit, my tolerance of pain is really really, I mean really high. So when I actually admit I am in pain, then its reeeaalllly painful.
I woke up yesterday morning to that excruciating pain that I had forgotten. Went thru the day slowly (as to why my fb status said, didnt do squat today lol) and took some meds hoping its just a one time thingie. Unfortunately I woke up today to the same. I am sitting on a chair 90 degree upright writing this ngeh ngeh ..
As you guys are aware, my knee is pretty busted from my 44.2km run (Yim, sorry yeee) and when I went to my doc last week, got an ear of babbling from him (lucky he is cute) and he put me on medication with strict instructions if there were to be no improvement, I am to visit him again.
Well, improved it did not. Normal walking in the mall strains the ligament so much so after half an hour, I'd be limping a bit here and there so this morning I went to see him again. Got another lecturing (did I tell you he's cute?) and so I had no choice but to go for the jabs. Not steroids but close to it, stronger than normal painkillers jab .. 3 weeks in a row and physio. He made all arrangements there and then, I guess he knew anak mami too well, which irked me to the max (but he is cute ok laa). And then the backache problem I had to tell him cos I cant stand it anymore.
After lots and lots of questions (and he got cuter and cuter) he concluded that my backache is back because I had abruptly stopped using my spine - I use to run daily, be it 3km but daily. And I havent had any consistent running for a long while now. Its like I am cursed, I run hard and long my knees take the woes and I stop my back start screaming. And I cant afford to gain weight too, right now I am at the "ngam-ngam" scale .. this is okay infact I dont mind losing a bit more.
We went through all my current exercise regime and finally I am allowed to do the following :- (i pity the people waiting outside to see the doctor cos I was in the room looong time)
1) continue my cardio strength classes - lesser weight dumbells than I am carrying now till the backache subsides and on lowest board level or just do it on the floor (err u guys faham kan? )
2) yogalates once i can do squats and lunges with dumbells exercise thrown in, but to start with normal yoga first but not in two weeks time since lots of stretching and squats are involved in yoga classes.
3) enjoy my salsa class, less hip gyrating LOL
(I have to sit and discuss with my gym instructor on what I can and cannot do in her class but she is superb and had always helped me out)
4) absolutely no long runs minimum till end of the year. I am supposed to brisk walk only, max distance 10 to 12km once a week only, the rest would have to be short ones, three times a week only - and I can only start my brisk walk end of next week and report to him.
Seems that my strained ligament and inflammation is quite bad. And of course that tweeny tiny tear.
So, thinking long term and being practical and smart (chewahhh) I am hanging up my running shoes for long runs. So I am saying goodbye to PBIM and SCSM challenge this year. (I am holding my half marathon PBIM bib for someone but will give away my SCSM bib, anyone interested contact me!!) I was sooo looking forward to get the SCSM finisher tee laaa :( but I've had zero training and thinking of another sure 7 hours (or more) of hobbling (with this knee condition) , no thank you. Thinking crazy I'd do this without blinking but thinking of the effects and responsibility to family and friends and the need of my legs for a long time to come ....
But I will be going full force to support the FMVs for both events (nana gives his green light already) and also to kiasu with you guys. Insyaallah, where it permits I will do the short runs. Where it doesn't permit me to run, if I am around and free, you will see me at the starting line sending you guys off and at the finishing line welcoming you guys back !!
Reading the TNF warriors experiences and all, I want to do it one day. So anak mami is resting and come back stronger I will. Insyaallah. I am no quitter.
I have a promise to keep to a certain someone for another 42km tour during SCKLM 2011. And I know you guys will always be here for me. For that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!
Someone sent me this text when I whined : "even if you can no longer run more after this, to me u r always a great runner in ur own style" .. you know who you are, thank you, meant a lot to me (teary eyed pun ada hehe).
You guys will always have my support 100% .. so this is dedicated to all of you, my dear friends and brothers and sisters in crime :)
(excuse me, while i hobbled to cari tissue jap, *sheesh buat malu aje)
Heartsick, knees busted and excruciating/screaming backache/spine .. they say it comes in three. I hope this is mine.
Fingers crossed that my backache would somewhat lessen by Saturday, if not I'd be bent triple when I get out of the car when we reach Taiping. Its an important trip. Excruciating backache not strong enough a reason to miss this trip.
This weekend I will miss two wonderful events, the pool party at Ian's (jeles tahap gaban but then again I have weight problems ..) and Kash's HUKM party with the kids. You guys have fun and hopefully there will be more !
See you when I see you. Hugs and kisses. Take care. Be safe!!