Saturday, April 30, 2011

Flashback Saturday 6/11

The days and hours seem to just zoom away. Its a week today that my mother in law passed away.

We will all die someday. Without a doubt. Its a matter of when, how and where. Its a matter of whether or not you will know, whether or not you will get to say proper goodbye to your loved ones.

Would you like to know that the end is near? Or would you just like it to happen, fast and as painless as it can be?

Not that we are asking to die, but I believe that we should be prepared for it. So that when we leave, we do not leave a mess behind. Get your affairs straightened out. Write your will. Tell people that you love them. Forgive if you can find it in your heart. Forget and move on. Confide to someone close what you would to be or not to be done if you should leave suddenly. Live, laugh and love life. Life is short. Enjoy it to the fullest with your loved ones.

Whenever I hear news of someone dying, be it of illness or accident or any reasons, I would always encourage the family members to tell them that their time is near. Why? not to scare them but to give them the unique opportunity to leave peacefully. To get to do some last minutes things, to put affairs in order, to see someone that they have longed for, to forgive, to forget. To be able to say proper goodbye to each and everyone. To repent and seek forgiveness from Allah. For me its both a curse and a blessing. Its a curse because you now know that your time is up and you dont know what awaits you and you'd be anticipating for the last breath to be drawn but its a blessing because you get to set things in motion as you want it to be. I wouldnt mind knowing even though it will scare the hell out of me.

Some would like to keep it a secret, my question is do we have that right to keep it from them? Because we are afraid that the news would be so devastating? they news would only make things worst? I dont know, but If I am dying than I want to know. Because there would be things that I would want to settle before I close my eyes for the last time. Hearing it would definitely take its toll on the bearer but I do believe that once the reality sinks in, and you realise that you have been give the rare opportunity to make things right before you die, you would embrace it. I  know I would.

Would you?

Al-fathihah to all the souls out there especially to Babah and Mak.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Goodbye Mak


Dearest Mak

Wherever you are, I know you are happy. I hope you are placed within the special people, because you are, special. I guess Babah was both sad and happy to see you eh? Sad because you had to leave us and happy that you are both now together again.


I still cant believe that you left us Mak. It was so sudden. But the signs were there, subconsciously you had been telling us but  we didnt see it, only after you've left that all the things that you said and did, we made the connection.

You came to me Friday night. Thank you Mak. That was the last time that I "saw" you. The dream was so real, it was like you were there with me (I still dont know where it was) and I could smell your favourite talcum powder. You were telling me that you want us to come home to PD for the weekend, even when I told you that we might not make it you were really insistent. And true enough, we did go back, to say goodbye to you. I woke up with my heart beating so fast and I wondered .. I have never dreamed of you, ever, in the 23 years that I've been with Abang. I didnt say anything to Abang but I had planned to call you. I had this uneasy feeling, but Mak, you were so healthy .. but as things turned out, I was running errands and things got in the way and I missed that one call, that would had given me the opportunity to hear your voice one last time. It is my one regret, not calling you immediately. 

But I am happy Mak that we were here and not elsewhere in another country. I am happy that I get to say proper goodbye to you. To give you your last cleanse.
 
You must be wondering, why I didnt shed a tear? not a single drop? I cant explain it Mak. I was in shock and at the same time, there were things to do, things to settle .. I was just numb. I kissed you for the last time and I was really sad but still the tears did not come. I  cant explain it. But now I know better. I needed time to really accept the fact that you would not be with us anymore. I needed time on my own, alone , to grief for you. And finally yesterday, when I started this, the dam broke and the tears came. And I cried for you, for all the times that we shared, the memories that we shared, the stories and secrets .. we shared a lot of moments together kan Mak? I am one of the lucky ones that didnt have a horror mother-in-law story to tell.


Thus I am truly sorry that I did not manage to talk out with you of the tiff we had and we did not resolve it. But I hope you know that no matter what , it wouldnt have changed how I felt about you. I love you like my own mother and I know you love me like your own too. Nothing could ever change that.


Abang is taking this rather hard too. But you know him, in his own quiet way. I will be there for him Mak. We will take care of each other and we will take care of the rest too. We will keep the family together, Mama and Paksu and all your grandchildren. Dont worry, we will be fine. We will move on, because that is what you would have wanted. For us to go on and have a good happy life.


I will miss you Mak. But you will always be close to my heart. You will be with us in all our times of celebration of the family member's achievements, weddings, births. You and Babah will always be with us.


I hope that you will forgive me for anything that I might have said, done, that hurt you. I hope that you will forgive us for not being there for you. I hope that you will forgive us for always not being able to make it for functions and other things. But I hope you know that in our heart we were there.


Rest in peace Mak. Be our guardian. Let your spirit touched our souls. Guide us. Send our love to Babah.


Goodbye Mak. I love you. Always, always.




Your daughter in law,
June


Saturday, April 16, 2011

Flashback Saturday 5/11

Nothing can top the feeling you get when you are running .. I wish I am running tonite but since I am stuck here in JB, if it doesnt rain I will go out and run here instead .. hoping for a 21k to match my registered run! If you see a hot petite lady using JUNE MALIK, holler to her .. she is running under my bib :)

Going down memory lane .......
SCKLM, time ni boleh lari lagi haha

my most fav pic

drenched, after my first 21k

masih tembam lol

this pic reminds me of tiff's comment : with your seluak baggy haha


Have fun at ENR tonite peeps and have a blast .. see you when I see you :) Especially to Deo and Che, good luck for your virgin run .. go pop the cherry heheeh ..

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Flashback Saturday 4/11


I am blessed to have not one, not two but THREE mothers.


From left to right , meet :-

My mom, Kalthombi bt  Hussein - will be 87 years old in May
My biological mom, Ainshabee bt Shaik Madar - 77 years old 5/4
and my mom-in-law, Zawiah bt Omar - 75 years old in October

And they are all in good health. Alhamdulillah. My mom can still cook, do light housework and has a wicked memory :)

My mom and biological mom (bm) are cousins. Long story short, I was raised by my mom from the age of 2 months. What I truly appreciate was that they never hide the fact from me that I actually have another family, my real family,  besides the one that I grew up with. I grew up knowing that I have other brothers and sisters (5 elder brothers, 3 elder sisters and 1 younger sister to be exact lol) but I love the fact that I am the youngest in my family of 4 (two elder sisters and 1 elder brother) and they pamper me endlessly, till today :)


Here's to mothers, the one that will always be there for us, no matter what !

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

RUN REPORT :)

A short one. I need to gloat LOL. Its so pathetic but then again a PB is a PB kan? Yim had his glory 100k and Zack his 90k and so this is mine mwah ha ha ..

Its one of those days that all things fell in place.  My knees did not creak, my ankle held up and I had pent up anger that needed to be let out.

For the past two weeks I didnt go for even a walk. I swam, went to gym and swam.  Today I decided I will go for a run. A proper run that gets your heart beating fast , that has your sweat trailing down your face , that gives u a lovely tan line, and that helps you to let it all out!

And ran I did. I ran for a full 52 minutes like a maniac and got my PB for my 10k. I am now resting , watching CSI and had both iced and applied ointment to my knees and ankle and so far so good. 

It feels like the first 10k in 2009 but with a timing that I doubt I can repeat but hell, yeahh .. I did it. Maybe this  once, but its more than enough :)






**Tiff : the demons didnt go away but I sure had fun chasing them LOL**

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

SCKLM 2011 RUNNING CLINICS

  Be it your first full marathon, half marathon, 10k  or not .. come for the fun of meeting up with friends and getting tips from the ones that's been there and done it .. SCKLM are organising running clinics as follows , do register fast as places are limited ..


From Zero to Hero!

The Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2011 Running clinics are back – more comprehensive than ever.

This year, we have included training circuits to help you prepare not only for the full marathon but also the half marathon and 10km races.

Running clinics are 30 – 45 minute theoretical courses run by Mark Williams, the official running coach of the Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2011 culminating with a 5km run (approximate) and a question and answer session.

Training circuits are theoretical and practical courses run by Mark Williams and professional coaches from the FTAAA. Each circuit will commence with a short briefing session on basic training topics followed by supervised runs for a pre-determined length of time. Timing is dependent on the category of race and runners will be provided with training log sheets to track their own progress.

Both clinics and circuits will cover topics such as training, stretching, nutrition, hydration, gear, injury prevention and helpful tips for ladies and are designed especially to aid you in your training, show you the correct and safe way to improve on your strength, endurance, flexibility and coordination.

Registration for the running clinics and circuits is absolutely FREE – just fill in the form! After that, all you need to do is bring along your running apparel, running shoes and a change of clothes for after – You may even walk away with some prizes!

 
Click here to register for the Running Clinics & Training Circuits



Runners’ who have not registered for the SCKLM2011 can also register at the clinics and circuits and enjoy Early Bird Rates! (cash transactions only)

 

Schedule of activities

 
Circuit Date           Location                             Description/Start Time Category/Running Time                                           
      FM HM 10km
10 April Tmn Tasik Perdana
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Clinic & Circuit
6.30am
75 min 55 min 40 min
24 April Tmn Tasik Perdana
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Circuit
6.30am
75 min 55 min 40 min
1 May Metropolitan Park, Kepong
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Clinic
6.30am
90 min 70 min 45 min
1 May Padang Polo, Ipoh
Clinic
7.30am
Fun Run
8 May Istana Garden, JB
Clinic
7.30am
Fun Run
15 May Metropolitan Park, Kepong
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Circuit
6.30am
90 min 70 min 45 min
22 May Tmn Tasik Titiwangsa
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Circuit
6.30am
105 min 85 min 55 min
29 May Tmn Tasik Titiwangsa
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Circuit
6.30am
105 min 85 min 55 min
5 June Tmn Tasik Permaisuri
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Circuit
6.30am
120 min 100 min 60 min
12 June Tmn Tasik Permaisuri
Clinic & Circuit
6.30am
120 min 100 min 60 min
Registration for each session is limited to the first 300 participants only.